Friday, November 14, 2014

Failing Miserably

Fourteen days in.

Two weeks gone. Two weeks to go.

And I suck.

I am really not good at this whole discipline thing. I just broke 4, 000 words yesterday. That seems like a lot, doesn't it? To me it does.


Holy shit, Batman.

The days have slipped away and I've fallen farther and farther into word debt. And I'm not exactly sure how I'm going to get out of it. According to the NaNoWriMo website, I need to write an average of 2, 700 words a day to make up for it. Pft. When I couldn't even manage to keep on top of 1, 600 words?

It's my fault though, I got lazy. And sucky. WHY MUST YOU SUCK SELF?!

We'll see how well this continues. I'm not too thrilled with my story already. I think next time I'll have to map it out a little better. Right now I'm just staring at the computer going "duuuuuhhhhh" with a little bit of drool running down my face because I can't connect to my character. Who is she and why is she making me write about her?

It's too bad I couldn't include these blog posts in my novel. Brilliant idea there!

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

NaNoWriMo Schedule

I decided to do this yesterday to keep track of where I am supposed to be. I know that roughly I have to write 1,667 words a day, but how much does that equal out to for my word count each day?

So, below, you'll find the total words per day you are supposed to have written to keep on track with the 50,000 word goal. Other people have probably posted this before but I wanted it for my own reference.

Day  Total Words 
1                   1,667
2                   3,334
3                   5,001
4                   6,668
5                   8,335
6                 10,002
7                 11,669
8                 13,336
9                 15,003
10                 16,670
11                 18,337
12                 20,004
13                 21,671
14                 23,338
15                 25,005
16                 26,672
17                 28,339
18                 30,006
19                 31,673
20                 33,340
21                 35,007
22                 36,674
23                 38,341
24                 40,008
25                 41,675
26                 43,342
27                 45,009
28                 46,676
29                 48,343
30                 50,010

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

We Start All Over

Yesterday I had to start my story over, not that I'd written much beforehand. But it still means that I'm falling drastically behind schedule.

When I originally wrote the 900 or so words I started with, it just wasn't sitting right with me. It was blocky and choppy, and I just could not find my characters voice. I sat down, thought about it, and realized that I'd started at the wrong point in my characters life. I also started in third person, which I have since switched to first person, although I keep going back and forth.

So as of today, I'm sitting at just under 2,500 words. Which sounds great, if I wasn't supposed to be sitting at around 6,000 words. Man this is tough.

I'm thinking that it might be a good idea to sit down and block out scenes, but I've never written like that before. This is definitely uncharted territory for me. I'm getting all nervous that no one is going to like my story even though no one has to read it!

It seems my pesky inner editor is still in my head.

Any thoughts on whether or not planning ahead or just letting it flow is better? I know one or the other isn't going to work for everyone, but I'm curious if one works more often.

Monday, November 3, 2014

My Word Count Is Not Your Word Count

So it's day three of hell...ur, I mean NaNoWriMo. And I suck.

Saturday I wrote about 950 words, which wasn't too bad considering I probably actually wrote close to 2,000 words, I just couldn't decide how I wanted my novel to start.

I kept flipping back and forth between first and third person (still not sure which one I prefer). Then I didn't know where I wanted my character to start out. I've had an opening line stuck in my head for a couple of weeks, but when I started with it, it didn't feel right. So I rewrote.

Then I wasn't altogether happy with the story. An idea I loved Friday, I hated Saturday. It was not flowing at all. Usually I visualize in my head what is happening as I wrote and I couldn't. It felt like I was standing in a room with my eyes closed and TRYING to describe what was going on around me. It just was not working at all.

Sunday I failed even more. I. Did. Not. Write. A. Single. Word. Not one.

I'm still working on my schedule, to see if I write better in the morning, afternoon or night. I like my sleep and I work during the day, so it's probably going to end up being night time. I need to get into the flow though.

Today I will force myself to sit down and write. Even if I have to glue my ass to the seat.

Tonight is all about keyboards and coffee (see what I did there? ;).